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“I took church very, very seriously,” she said. She said she stopped wearing certain clothes, changed the way she spoke and even stopped drinking alcohol because she wanted to learn how to raise her child properly.
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Mzbel has revealed how a series of questions about a pastor’s behaviour eventually led to her leaving the church.
The musician opened up about her spiritual journey during an extensive conversation with Kafui Dey, explaining that becoming a mother initially pushed her to take Christianity much more seriously.
According to Mzbel, after becoming a mother she began attending church regularly and changed several aspects of her lifestyle.
“I took church very, very seriously,” she said.
She said she stopped wearing certain clothes, changed the way she spoke and even stopped drinking alcohol because she wanted to learn how to raise her child properly.
But her commitment to the church began to change when she started asking questions.
Mzbel described herself as naturally curious and said she struggles when people tell her something without adequately explaining why.
“When I don’t get answers, I feel like you’re sitting on something. You’re hiding something,” she said.
Her biggest concern, she explained, involved a pastor whose conduct appeared inconsistent with the things he preached.
“I asked him, why are you comfortable doing the same things that you tell people not to do?” she recalled.
Mzbel said the pastor would passionately preach against certain behaviour, particularly on Sundays, but she claimed she later observed him engaging in what she described as “weird stuff”.
The situation became even more uncomfortable when, according to Mzbel, the pastor made a pass at her.
“He made a pass at you and that will get very close to you,” Kafui Dey asked, clarifying her account.
Mzbel confirmed that this was part of what made her question the situation even more.
“I was curious because he is very serious about the things that people shouldn’t do when he’s preaching,” she said.
That contradiction, she explained, made her ask an even bigger question: if the pastor knew something that members did not know, why was he doing things he told them not to do?
“What do you know?”
Mzbel said she began asking other people questions because she was not getting satisfactory answers directly from the pastor.
“The more I ask, the more bad he looks. But I wasn’t thinking that it would make him look bad,” she said.
She argued that church members who pay tithes and contribute financially deserve to be taught and given answers.
“If you know something, you should teach us. That’s why we pay our money, tithes, to you,” she said.
Her questions eventually became a problem for the pastor.
She said the pastor eventually pleaded with her to move to another branch of the church.
Instead, she left.
“And he asked me to quit the church, and I did,” she said.
Her spiritual search did not end with Christianity. Mzbel said she later explored other belief systems, including Hare Krishna, atheism and Judaism.
She said her motivation was simple: she wanted answers.
“I wanted to know something,” she said.
After years of searching, Mzbel said she eventually reached the conclusion that the answers she was looking for were not necessarily outside her.
“In the end I realized that the answers are not out there. It’s inside me,” she said.
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